What do I write about?
Writing stuff for other people is difficult.
There I said it. I have told you something that I have been having a conversation in my head for sometime.
So I declare that this essay is going to be about writing.
Oooh so meta… it’s like that movie, dream within a dream type…
No it’s not.
If this was a newspaper the reader would trust that whatever he read would at least have some kind of grace to make sure whatever was published at least made some kind of sense.
Because there was some skin in the game.
The publisher had something invested in whatever there was being published therefore you couldn’t just post some garbage out here.
There would be a certain kind of research involved.
Atleast a second edit for that matter.
Then it hits me.
I do have some skin in the game out here.
MY NAME IS WRITTEN NEAR THE TITLE OF THIS ESSAY.
My reputation in on the line, if I don’t force myself to post some quality stuff then this would not work for me.
Here lies the question, what makes writing difficult for me right now?
There is an underlying intention behind it and it comes from a sense of ambition.
That my essays are going to help people see the world in a new light.
or it’s the beginning of a certain kind of self-help book. Like our friend Mark Manson has done with his newsletter and blog.
My dear readers, the primary intention of this blog is to create for myself an unbreakable habit of writing essays everyday for my development.
A 1000 day writing challenge of posting content in such a way that by the end of this challenge my brain has been rewired to think and communicate in writing.
I’ve made the act of writing difficult for myself for the very reason that I am so ambitious. The added pressure of churning out a good essay right now out of the ether seems impossible. I have already made up my mind that such impromptu work will never get me near enough to what I intend to make.
That’s the problem with my context right here.
And by problem, it’s the tiny thing that is standing in the way of me being one with my essay.
When I write this, I am not just focused on writing, a thought comes up in between overidding whatever I am thinking about to put on paper, the thought says “ This is crap, this is trash, this is garbage, you have a long way to go.” and all these thoughts are automatic. I did not create them, they just come as they please.
Instead of fighting these thoughts, negative or otherwise ( some might say they are even positive, especially for those who want to see me stop writing and make these posts everyday, but I digress), how about I build a context for myself so powerful that by the time I do reach my essay number 1000 I have achieved a writing capacity so robust, framing my arguments on the fly, which are built tight and well-constructed. That would be amazing.
There would be a sense of power there like never seen.
Writing is fun, sharing your ideas with people of the world is fun.
Mobilzing the power of language inorder to alter the way reality occurs for you.
That is just wizardry.
